Sorry, I can't really think of all that much to write. I'm doing pretty well, it's just hard to think right now. Just like every week. And I didn't really think about what I'd write before I started. So here it goes.
Ok, this week I learned the hard way how important obedience is. We didn't go out and actively try to break mission rules or anything, we just haven't really been trying our hardest. But that's why repentance is so awesome! And this week we made a commitment to change. We are exactly obedient from now on. Right? Right!
The weather here has been pretty TemperatureMental. Remember how last week I said that it was so cold, and I was really happy when I received a package full of warm stuff I didn't think I'd need ("Texas" he said. "It's warm there" he said)? Well this week it went back to hitting the 80-90s, and I went back to sleeping without a blanket. It's kinda annoying. But I guess next year I'll be more used to it, and be better at being prepared. Boy Scouts for life!
What else... I gave myself a haircut! Or rather, I tried, and Elder Latu fixed it. I think I did a pretty good job for the first time, but the sides were pretty long at the end. I don't have a before and after picture, but I do have a picture. With my shoe. Or rather, what used to be a shoe. (Let me just say, I am very grateful for super-glue and bicycle helmets. Not one of my proudest hours.) But it's all good! I can fix it!
We went on exchanges with the Zone Leaders this week! It was really good, but I need to be a lot better at talking to people. Also, what I learned with him is that a lot of the time, people don't even know that they need something in their life. If they've never felt the spirit before, trying to teach them without first getting them to feel the spirit is like telling someone to go eat this food they've never tried before. It's the best food in the world! But they don't know that. If they're sitting at the restaurant of life and ordering, they'll want to order what they know tastes alright. Most people wouldn't know what they're missing unless they've felt the spirit already. So that's the first thing I need to do as a missionary. And there's lots of ways to do that. We can sing a hymn, or share a scripture, or say a prayer, or bear testimony, or something along those lines. All of those give them a taste of the spirit! And then they'll realize that they want more! So now I've got to carry my hymnbook around as well!
So that's pretty much what I'm doing. How I'm doing is a lot more complicated than that. This is already pretty spiritually exhausting. I'm having a hard time learning everything that I need, or rather, applying everything that I learn. I learn so many things when we practice, but then we go out into the field and I resort back into my old little habits and forget the new ones I'm supposed to do. It's frustrating sometimes! And other times I feel like I can't do this on my own!
But that's the key. I can't. But I'm not alone.
I didn't bring my scriptures to the library with me, so I can't look up the reference or the right words or anything, so I won't even try to quote it. But Jesus Christ has felt everything that every one of us has felt. He's suffered for our pains, our afflictions, our bad feelings, our sins, and every time we feel like crap, he's felt the same way. I don't understand the Atonement yet, and I don't think I ever will in this lifetime, but because of Him and what he's done for us, we can and will receive the help of the only perfect person to ever walk this earth. All we have to do is do our best, keep going, and keep improving. If you haven't read it, stop reading my letter and read "His Grace is Sufficient" by Brad Wilcox. (For a copy of it, click here: speeches.byu.edu/?act=viewitem&id=1966 or to watch it, click below.) And if you have read it already, I don't care. Read it again. And again. And again. EVERY DAY!!! Because it is. His grace is sufficient for all of us. And I hope that every one of you has felt that. If not, ask. Ask God. Ask Him if He's there. Ask him what you can do to be better. Ask Him for forgiveness. And I can promise you that you will receive an answer if you ask in faith. (Faith in God includes having faith in his timing) I received an answer like that just last night. So please. Stay strong.
I love you all! Please continue to write! and don't be afraid to share the gospel. You will be strengthened as you do. (Ask the bishop for pass along cards)
Stay strong!
Love,
Elder Chamberlain